God Knows...

When you just need him.

Wanted to write this sooner, but life has been Spring break crazy house here.

So last week I went to the doctor had some testing done and figured I'd hear the results in 30 days when I see her again.

Fast forward two days later... it's Wednesday evening and I'm getting ready for MOPS it dawned on me I haven't checked our home voicemails for awhile. I check and hear two voicemails from my Doctor's office. One from Tuesday and one from earlier that day telling me to call back. By the time I listened to the messages the office had already closed. I'm trying not to panic, but thinking what's wrong with me? I mean it must be important if they called twice and wanted me to call back when I just saw her on Monday.

Was considering staying home, but I knew I would just google every disease out there and convince myself I have it.

On the way to MOPS I'm trying not to cry or get worked up about nothing, but I was worried. I was worried for my children and my family, my heart was aching for them. My Mother died when she was 40, I'm getting up there and that's my biggest fear. I don't want them to have to go through that anytime soon. So I get to MOPS and I'm sitting there trying not to focus on the unknown, but it wasn't working at all.

Then our Speaker starts talking about Expectations on how we Expect things to go a certain way and doesn't always happen that way. Then said these two verses;

I Peters 5:77 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Psalm 55:22 Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken.

When I heard that it took all my power not to start bawling right there, but as soon as I got to the car I did. Kept thanking God on the way home, I was meant to be at MOPS to hear that message.

I believe he wanted to let me know he was there for me and to cast my worries on him. God is the only one who knows where our path in life is going.

I'm also sure he was trying to telling me I'm crazy and stop panicking. HA! All it ended up being was I needed to go back get more blood work done and they prescribed me some vitamins. Right now No News is Good News.

What I know for a fact is... God is by my side.

xo